Just a moment

Worry not young man
I shall not be too long
I'll leave the place in your capable hands
you wont notice that I've gone
I just need a moments break
rest from all you see
a moment without anyone
just one to be me
But I'll be back
so very soon
and when I come, you'll know
strength lies within
from eyes it shines

sometimes conquering occurs alone

A Lack of Color

Empty tones
hollow notes
enter my mind
fill in thoughts
I'd rather not
I think I won't
I'll wander out instead
anywhere that isn't here
this day started with sunshine
with colors bright and
breezes warm
the scents teased my heart
I could have stayed out all day
It's night time now
and nothing that was
is
anymore
its dark and cold
she's home again
tension and pressure
emanating from turned shoulders
empty conversation across the
airwaves
doing what must be done
all the bare minimums
show up here
say your piece
do this and that
and don't be late
I've done it all
all I can do
And into the stars I'll run
into the dark
where hues and shades fade fast
where looking back at planet earth
it seems beautiful at last

a lack of color
a solid darkness
no expectations
obligations
just you alone
and all you hold
is thought and known and felt
Just you, all you
and no one else
tonight is spent alone

loving you

I may not always like myself
I may not quite approve
of the way my nose sits
or the way my stomach moves
I may wish I didnt think so much
wish I didn't talk
but the truth is that I wouldn't change a thing
I love myself a lot

Life seems to be a journey
of progression and experience
and if I wasn't me,
then who would I be?

A small brunette with a button nose
sweet voice and designer clothes
A curvy latin diva
with hair and eyes to kill
but if you move your body,
you'll always get your will
A lanky blonde athletic girl
with legs that won her medals
I'd wear jeans and Nike shirts
and still make 'em jealous

The funny thing about these people
though they may have their own fun
is my life wouldn't be the same
if of them I were one.
I wouldn't think the same weird thoughts
or hear the sounds I hear
I wouldn't see the skies or ground
the way I've grown so dear

I wouldn't love the live I have
or all the people in it
and I'd never have my one true soul
to remind me every minute

I may not always like myself
but I am glad I'm me
in another life, with another man
I'd never want to be

I love myself
loving you

Dangerous Thoughts

Walking along a stone bridge,
my hand grazes the side
moving up with the posts
and down with the rail
I imagine the ground beneath me
if I took a sail

I don't look over the waist-high edge
I don't look beneath me
but I hear the cars whizzing past
so fast if I stepped out
there would be no time
and before they knew I was there
I wouldn't be anymore

The rain falls though unseen
silent drops upon my coat
wet on the ground
ignored by the world
it's too dark for observing
too dark for details
save those bathed in the yellow
of old and creaking lamp posts
the cracks in the sidewalk,
but only those
lighted, as they've always been.
the others don't exist
but you;ll feel them


I've never been really tempted
but tonight I am alone
I'm wet; have no direction
just trying to get home
I've been walking now for ages
through streets shadowed and bare
Cat calls and empty pages
my heart tries not to care
You haven't said a single word
not even one in anger
Concern fills me like a shallow ditch
worry; impending doom
so many things I could do
but how will I know which?

no tiny peek
no little glance
I will give no chance
to choose to try
see what its like
to fall beneath this blackened sky
to make these hours
stretch into days
and jump with no one there

I do not look
but I still  know
what grey and green lies down below
It's concrete steps and iron bars
mushy grass next to old cars

I'm not tempted, really
I don't really want to know
but I'll think some more
maybe forever
of the hardness of that blow
my body on the ground
in some big odd heap
with no one else around
I'll slip away to sleep

someone will find me
at some point
with their eyes or with their tires
and if I had no one to live for
that's what I'd want to do
I want to feel the wind
I want to hear the crunch
I want to know the damage
and if I can take the pain
would it kill me quickly
or will my landing be soft?

If I had nothing to live for
I might try it,
for fun.

Something about Today

Oh what a day what a beautiful day
the smells of the world wafting 'round
lights and sounds dance about
oh yes the earth is alive!
breathing and beating
'DO SOMETHING TODAY'
the whole place is singing!
run run run
raise up your arms
open your eyes
open your heart
the grass blades are moving
ideas floating in air
dont let them go
take a big breath and so
inhale the world
and breathe prospects fair
soar among the clouds
see the world through sunlight
take a peek through the fog
reach out to another
don't let your dreams down
be who you are
and love who you're not
and most of all live
for this life's all you've got