me but not myself

me but not myself.
i hate me
but not myself
myself 
a wonderful creature 
of interest and 
love
a blossoming fountain of life
at least, 
that is what my mind tells me.
but Me.
Me.
a reminder of how much I 
detest that which I
have allowed myself
to slip into

sometime I hope
to find myself
amid all this
me
mountains and mountains of 
me 
to be climbed and conquered.

I'm on my way.